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lol , Thanks loveee . and I’m not a virgin, I’m legal . and lol , alright Hola at me so we can make some plans (;
Dude… What the actual fuck does that say up there?
why the hell would you even answer the questions of an ignorant motherfucker who comes at you like that? smh .. we`ve got to do better.
This just look like a big old mess. Why do people type and write like this. Public Education is Free you know……
Moving along slowly…
I just got done finishing my FAFSA, I’m not sure anymore on what I wanna go to school for but general class for now will do. As long as I am doing something, yesterday I went down to Urban League again and applied for 5 Jobs, one hit me back ASAP and said they weren’t interested Oh well gotta keep it moving. Life has been on hold (mostly my fault) for the past six months, and rather or not I was moving Life and time surly was and I need to catch up plus more. I’m gonna travel to the south side to apply for jobs today and take a stop at the car shop to go in my car and get some stuff out. I surly miss having a car but things happen and life goes on. Plus Today is beautiful I only hope its warm out, I HATE BEING COLD!! I also deleted my facebook today, I realized its better off being deleted for now and when the time is right or even if I ever feel the need to ill get back on there. Well I’m off, have a blessed & beautiful day KEEP GOD FIRST and all things shall be put into place.
All I really want…
I’ve never had a real relationship with my father, even to this day I still don’t have a relationship with him, if we are around each other we speak two words and than keep it moving. Growing up my father has always been around, actually was married to my mother, lived in my house and I seen him on the daily but yet we spoke our Hi’s, maybe even bye’s and kept it moving. So growing up I didn’t get to be daddies little girl, or the pep talks or even you have to meet my father and I missed out on a lot. I also believe a lot of mistakes I made in life with guys and possibly with friendships would’ve never been made if my father would’ve just been a dad and built that relationship with me. So last night as my company rumbled on and on about some good things and about some things I could careless I realize that all I want is to be loved. My father loves me of course I am his child but my father never express to me the love he has for me so it left me empty handed. I am 21 and throughout the years I did a lot of stuff, stuff I shouldn’t and stuff that just happened but stuff that I will never regret just learn from, but I realized last night that the stuff mistakes that I tend to think about I made them out of trying to find the love that my father should have provided but within other people. As my company rambled on I kept thinking to myself all of these years of broken hearts, lies and let downs was all in the act of just trying to find the missing love of my father. So now being 21 I realized that I don’t know rather or not my father will ever step up to plate to build that relationship but I cant keep looking for something that my father should have provided for me in other people. It’s now up to me to build that love within myself and to find it on my own but to find it in positive ways. I have to allow GOD to remold me and along the way find new loves, instead of trying so hard to find love within a man. Yes I do wanna fall in love with a man but I wanna fall in love with myself, I wanna take care of me, I wanna do everything that my father should have done for myself so when it does come to dating a man I wont expect him to do it all, because I can depend on me to do it for myself first. So I give it up to all the Dad’s out there that that not only cherish their relationship with their little girl but also cherish their relationships with their sons. I don’t know what it’s like to be a parent but one day I do hope to find out, but I plan on being the best parent, the one my father never took the chance to be. =)
On this beautiful Saturday…
On this beautiful Saturday, with all my bedroom windows open and blinds pulled up I sat and thought about everything that has happened in my life. GOD has seriously saved me so many times and there would be times after times that I would make the same mistakes twice but yet he kept on saving me. Ive been told over and over that the purpose of my life is special (not saying its more special than anyone else’s) and that GOD has a plan for me. This past time that I needed his saving, I honestly thought he wasnt going to save me because I knew what the result were going to be and yet I still made the mistakes yet AGAIN. But he did, he saved me. So from that day that I found out he saved me again and for the rest of my life I will go HARD FOR God. It made the picture clearer, that I may not know where I am going, or where I’ll end up but I know with the GRACE of God ill be okay and I will end up right where I am suppose to be.
REBLOG IF you can’t push the cross-walk button just once. You push it 7 times.
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I miss you like crazy and I wish things would’ve never gotten the way they did, crazy thing is I let them and the worst part is I walked away…Jeremiah 3: 11-17. God is married to the backslider.
